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Vegas! February 2011

2011-03-12T14:32:00.000-07:00

Just thought i'd post a few random photos from my Vegas trip! :)

Merry Christmas! 12.25.2010

2010-12-25T21:29:00.001-07:00

Merry Christmas! My holidays have been amazing this year!

Today is Christmas, and we had a wonderful day! I'm so very grateful for my loving and caring family. Here are just a bunch of random pics from this morning. Happy Holidays everyone!

Thanks for being a part of my life and for all the love and support! <3

Turkey Day 2010!

2010-12-04T09:20:00.000-07:00

So on Thanksgiving we had our annual family lunch with the Noakes'. My uncle Craig came up to me and asked why I was taking pictures. I had to bite my tongue from laughing. I said "uh..for memories." But really, what kind of question is that? I ALWAYS take pictures at my family events. OH! Maybe he heard the rumor that I suck at blogging?? That would make sense! LOL Why do I take so many pics if I always neglect to post them on my blog!? Haha, JK I know he doesn't read my blog but it cracked me up that he had to question why I'd be taking photos at a family holiday event. So having said that, here's some of the pics!

Thanksgiving 11/25/2010:

And yes, I did make fun of Bryan for still doing "bunny ears" after 1995 :) And he does it in every pic I have of him! :)

Bobby and Jarren playing pool...or trying. Jarr makes up his own rules to everything he does :) Its adorable

Nummy foods and great family! <3

My momma kicked my TR@$H at air hockey!!

...But we still loves each other!

Jarren was the hit of the day. He cracks me UP!

Beautiful Jamie and daughter Myrrie! I can't believe how big she's getting! (And No, Jamie, I'm not talking about you :P ) LOL

And of course the 2 best Thanksgiving traditions!!

1) Reading the Black Friday newspaper ads and....

2) Eating olives off my fingers! Traditionnnnnn! TRADITION! :)

Happy Holidays Everyone! And NOTE to Craig: I will continue taking pictures at other family events so be prepared at Christmas :P

Annual Pirate Party!

2010-11-26T10:55:00.000-07:00

I neglected to post my Pirate Party Pics from 2009 so I will post both 2009 and 2010 pics here!

In 2009 I had the 1st Annual Buccaneer Bash for my Birthday!

November 2009

Kenny made an awesome pirate!

And here is my Buccaneer Birthday Bash 2010

for my 28th Birthday:

The Truffle Shuffle from Goonies!

Maybe next year we'll have a "3rd Annual Pirate Party"...guess we'll see!

2010 Rundown...

2010-11-26T10:39:00.000-07:00

I know my 2009 blog sucked but I was worried it would freeze so I wanted to keep it simple! So here are a few things that happened in 2010!

Colton turned 1!

Then I got my first tattoo!

Then my babygirl Myrrie turned 1!

2010 has been such a great year! I Spent 9 months at a place called Orbit Medical. I just recently started a new job at University Medical Billing. Things have been great and I look forward to see what the future has in store!

2009 Rundown!

2010-11-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

YES, I am aware that it has been nearly 2 years since I posted a blog. 591 days to be exact! About a year ago I spent 4 hours on my blog but my computer froze every single time I tried. I've tried many times since to post that blog but the computer still always froze. SO I've decided to finally just start a new blog but I'll be skipping most events of the last 2 years and focus on the big ones!

Ok, the two biggest events of 2009 were the births of my nephew Colton Scott:

And my beautiful neice Myrrie Annelie!

In 2009 I also finally cut off all my hair!

Also of Course one of the biggest events of 2009 was the first Christmas with the two newborns

For Christmas, I made each of the kids a blanket!

Countdown....

2009-02-22T21:37:00.002-07:00

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Holiday Festivities!

2009-01-11T20:45:00.010-07:00

So...its 2009! And yes...they call me "Captain Obvious". :) Its my nickname. Things with Phil haven't gotten any better. If anything they've gotten much worse. However, I am not going to talk about him during this post. Its been a craaaazzzy month! Of course Christmas, parties, New Years, Weddings, and I went on a road trip. So here's whats been up!

At the begining of December, we had our work Christmas party. I used my Christmas bonus check to get my hair did! I chopped off about 10 inches of hair. :-S Here are some of my photo memories. (Some of these were taken with my cell phone so I apologize for bad quality).

I took a few "before" pics to be able to compare differences. Most people had no idea how long my hair is. I cut 10 inches! Thats so much hair! I feel so naked without my hair. Here are my before pics:

It was about to the bottom of my butt:

Here is a pic of my hair on the floor. I know it doesnt look like 10 inches, but she cut more after the dye was done.

I make tin foil look GOOD! LOL

And here is an "after" pic. This was the 2nd day when I was attempting to figure out how to do my hair now that I have some layers and long bangs. I still havent quite figured out what I'm doing with it. Its been quite the change for me. I do love the color though!

Another small event at the begining of December was I got to meet up with my best friend from high school that I havent seen in forever! He took me out on a REAL date! I mean, he actually paid for dinner and everything! And then the silly boy made me watch Kung Fu Panda at a park in his car...even though it was freezing outside and the car was turned off. (And I promise, all we did was watch a movie! :-P )

Here is me and Brad back in 2001 when we were seniors. This one is Senior Prom:

This one was taken at my sisters wedding:

And here we are in 2009 :) I love this guy!

Then of course we had Christmas. Sadly, I didn't take harldy any pics! I was kinda preoccupied with my AWESOME iPod touch!

Here are a few random pics of family on Christmas Eve:

The Tompsons:

Christmas Eve is my aunt Cha's Birthday, so Craig gave her birthday spankings!

Tony, Jenny & Jesse

On January 1st we spent the first day of our new year in a car! We drove from Salt Lake to Livermore, California to celebrate my cousins wedding. Here is some roadtrip pics! The scenery was so beautiful. It amazed me how it was like a dry dessert in some places and then snowy, and then green, then snowy again. It was bananas. I had fun though. Yay roadtrips!

I have a lot more photos of Nate's wedding that will be posted very soon! But I hope you enjoy what i've posted so far :)

Of Things Gone Downhill......

2008-12-08T21:59:00.002-07:00

So....Things are not happy nor cheery for me right now. My life straight up sucks. I just thought I'd take a moment and blog about the man who is literally ruining my life and sucking the life right out of me. A couple months ago Phil and his girlfriend Jamie randomly up and moved to Burley, Idaho. He has been promising me over and over that he would send me the divorce papers. He never did send them, despite repeated nagging by myself. I told him I would do the paperwork myself, but he refuses to give me his address. He doesn't want to give me his address cuz then debt collectors would be able to find him! SO this means I cannot send him the divorce papers. Nor will he do them himself. I have done everything I can think of in my power to make this as easy and painless for him as possible. I filled out all the paperwork and emailed it to him. All he had to do was print it and sign it. That way he never had to tell me his new address. Fine. But no, apparently that's too hard too. He has promised me he'd do it over and over but I still haven't received the papers. I have even offered to drive to Idaho and meet him at a public place to give him the papers. That way he still had the option of keeping his new location a secret. But he won't even agree to that. I cannot make the man sign the freaking divorce papers! Dude I've offered to send him money for the notory and I've offered to pay for the entire divorce myself (even though this whole thing is HIS fault).

So then everyone keeps telling me its possible to get divorced without him signing. Ok, as true as this may be, I have other issues in which I will get screwed over. Phil and I bought a truck about a month before he cheated on me. We are both co-signers on the truck. The plan was for him to take full responsibility of the truck and I took our other bills/debt. Now, the problem is-if he doesn't sign in the divorce decree that he is liable for payment of the truck, then I have absolutely no legal standing as far as the truck is concerned.

Which leads to me to my next problem. This stupid truck. He of course has it in Idaho. I've been getting calls 1-3 times a week from the company that financed our loan. Phil hasn't made a freaking payment on the truck since August!!!!! He's so far behind on the payments that it is now affecting BOTH our credit. Each month my credit gets dinged worse and worse. Last week they told me they are going to repo his truck and sell it. Which is fine by me, except we are upside down on the truck. Which means even when they sell it, we still owe thousands. And since Phil has skipped town and won't answer his phone or call people back, they are going to garnish MY wages for HIS truck!!!! I really don't know what to do. The only way to get my name off the truck is to divorce him, but he wont divorce me or tell me where he is hiding.

I've had multiple people tell me to go up to Idaho and take the truck. But what people don't understand is, then I'm still responsible for payment for the truck. If I take it, then I really will have to find a way to pay for it. And like I said, we are thousands of dollars upside down on the truck. I have my own car payment along with all our other bills to take care of. I cant afford his truck in addition to my own bills!

And then there's the bank account. This last week I had to pay $140 for ONE FREAKING TANK OF GAS. That's an expensive fill-up, huh? What happened is I accidentally used our joint account debit card. (Dont judge me-I'll explain that in a minute). Ok so I freaked out cuz we only had like a $1.17 in the joint account. So I put $50 cash in our joint account so that my gas purchase wouldn't overdraft. (And no, I don't have overdraft protection on my account). Later I checked my bank account and Zions took MY money and applied it to Phil's personal account because apparently he's several hundred dollars negative and has been for months. I had no idea and no control over his personal account. His own account isn't connected to me in any way, shape, or form. But because he's a signer on our joint account, they considered it "his" money too, and refused to credit me back my $50. So of course my $25 gas purchase went into overdraft. It ended up being $90. (plus the $50 that I already lost to Phil's account). How retarded is that? $140.00 freaking bucks for a tank of gas! I went to the bank in tears about it and they couldn't do anything so I just closed our joint account.

Ok...some of you may be wondering why I still had a joint account. I promise I have my reasons. Stop judging me. Phil and I are still on the same auto insurance, which comes out of our joint account automatically every month. Now, Phil and I have both been splitting the cost and putting the money into the joint account to share responsibility. I didn't want to cancel the joint because that meant I'd have to put his truck insurance to my own personal bank account for insurance payments. i didn't want to be responsible for payment of his insurance too. And yes, he did pay me for the most part. Not anymore though. He's becoming more and more of an asshole each day. Anyway, when I cancelled my joint account last week, I had to tell Allstate to withdraw the insurance from my own personal account. Which sucks cuz I know that Phil isn't going to put money for his portion in my bank account. So now I'm gonna end up paying for his freaking auto insurance too. Fair, huh!

Ok, so now this is where people start to tell me "just cancel his auto insurance" yeah, not as easy as that. Because my name is on the insurance and the truck, I cant just stop paying for the truck insurance. What if he gets in an accident? I'm required by law because we have a loan, to keep the truck fully insured. I'm screwed no matter what I do. Plus, my insurance rate will go up with just my own car. (cuz now we have a multiple car discount).

So what is a girl to do? I'm miserable. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. Even though we've been separated since April and he's living in another state, he's still managing to ruin my life. I haven't been sleeping. I've made myself physically ill with the stress. I've become a jerk! I'm so mean to all my friends and loved ones. I keep taking out my pain and anger on those i love and I apologize. I just am constantly upset. I've never felt this way in my life. I'm so bitter and angry and sardonic. I have several cousins that are getting married or just barely got married and I'm so bitter that I have to bite my tongue from screaming. I want to shake them and say DON'T DO IT! Marriage is the worst thing you can do! Isn't that horrible? I had so much fun with Phil that it breaks my heart that he's killing me slowly. Right up until the day he left me. I remember it perfectly. It was the morning of April 26th. He told me he loved me and promised he would love me and only me the rest of his life. Within hours he was packing his bags and left me. Wow. Its amazing how life can change so dramatically so quickly. I'm seeing his true colors though. I'm glad he did this now instead of after we had children and a home. I thought we could handle the divorce like mature adults, but apparently not. He's running and hiding. He won't answer my calls or texts or emails. He wont tell me where he lives so I cant mail him the divorce papers. He's not paying any bills so everyone is calling me trying to get money from him. (His dentist and doctors call me too). I'm so tired of it all. I loved Phil with all my heart and i never thought he would be capable of hurting me so very badly.

If anyone has any advice, I'll gladly listen. Please just don't judge or act like I'm a retard. I'm so tired of people saying "just take the truck!" or "just cancel your accounts" when its NOT that easy. Its like people don't seem to think I've tried to think of everything I can. But any new ideas I'm open to. I really don't know how I'll handle it if I get my wages garnished because Phil is to stupid than to get a job and pay his own bills. And no, I cant afford a lawyer. Im flat broke.

I hate this depressed rut I'm in. I start crying all the time randomly for no reason. And yes, I'm taking my meds. I can't imagine how I'd be acting if I weren't medicated right now. I even double up my Zoloft some days just to get by. I'm a strong, intelligent, secure woman. But he's slowly breaking that down. He's turning me into something I'm not. I'm insecure. I wonder why people can't love me. I wonder what I did to make him hurt me like this. I start blaming myself when I know that I didn't do anything wrong. He's hurting me so bad and he has no idea. He is changing what makes me "me." I have moments where I just want to step in front of a semi. I just wanna give up. I can't handle it anymore. How could the one man I loved so much I devoted my life to hurt me so deeply? I just don't understand it. Even as I type this I have tears rolling down my cheeks. I know the divorce was not my fault. Oh wait, what divorce? When people ask me what I want for Christmas, all I want is a divorce. All I want is to lose all ties with Phil. I want him to stop ruining my life. I hate him for what he's doing. I hate that he's having fun, and having sex, and doing whatever he wants without responsibility. Yet...I love him. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I wanted to have his babies. But now...all I want to do is move on. I want a new life. I want him to divorce me. I want him to cut these ties so that I can finally start my own new life. Is that too much to ask? Sometimes I wonder.... As bad as I hate myself and my life, I can't bring myself to believe that I really deserve this kind of misery...

Thanksgiving Weekend

2008-11-28T14:23:00.002-07:00

Happy Thanksgiving Weekend and "Black Friday!" This week has been pretty good. I had my birthday Monday, I'm now 26 years old. ewwww. But my birthday was really nice. Everyone at work was especially nice to me. Kind of a nice change of pace. :P I was very pleasantly surprised at how many calls and texts and emails I got. I am way more loved than I deserve! But I love you all and thanks for your thoughts!

Wednesday night Eileen came over for me to put fire engine red streaks in her hair. I still haven't seen how it turned out, but we had a good time bonding. I also put my hair in curlers for Thanksgiving. I looked like Shirley Temple. I'll add some pics below.

Thanksgiving was a blast! I had a wonderful meal with family and friends. I got a bunch of pics that I'll add below as well. My mom put up our Christmas tree. Its a really pretty blue one. Princess loved exploring the boxes. Today is "Black Friday" and my mom woke me up at 4:00 am so that we could go to Shopko. The line was wrapped around the building. Its my first Black Friday where I actually got up to go shopping. The customers at Shopko were actually quite nice. Target and Walmart however, not so much. The people would push and shove and practically take stuff out of your hands. I didnt care for that so much. If it werent for the amazing deals, I wouldnt have gone at all. I'm soooo excited for Christmas now! I picked out my present (and actually had to pay for half of it). I know it ruins the fun when you know what you're getting but lets just say its worth it cuz I'm soooo excited! Even if I am forking over a bunch of money myself to help pay. Yay!

Anyway, here are pics from the weeks events! Hopefully I'll still have more later this weekend. I'm going to a birthday dinner with Rusty tomorrow too. Yay! I love Thanksgiving weekend. Freaking rocks! I hope it was great for you all as well!!

Eventful weekend

2008-11-23T10:43:00.008-07:00

So this was a pretty exciting weekend! I imagine my idea of exciting is lame compared to the majority of people...but I'm still enjoying my weekend. I spent the majority of the weekend watching Grey's Anatomy Season 2. My friend got me interested in Grey's a few months ago, and I decided I needed to start from the begining and catch up to the current episodes. So I finished season 2 tonight. AMAZING! So much blood and guts! I freaking loved the intense drama.

Anyways...that was the majority of the weekend.

Next item up...

Hooray for Twilight!! AMAZING!! I very much enjoyed the show. I went into the movie with kinda low expectations. I have a LOT of negatives about the movie, especially the cast, but overall I still enjoyed the movie despite my gripes. I have seen it twice and I still want to see it again and again. When me and some friends and family went the other night I saw these awesome shirts that said "OCD" (Obsessive Cullen Disorder). I totally want one! :)

Does anyone remember Mystery Science Theater 3000? Where the man and the robots watched old B movies and commented about them and made fun of it the whole time?? I could TOTALLY go all MST3K on Twilight! I made this lovely re-creation of my MST3K Twilight vision:

Can ya see the tiny little bodies that I drew on the front row?? Thats me! Making smart aleck comments about the movie. Dang I'd be fanastic at it! :) Maybe I can start my own career! LOL Especially with Eileen as my cohert. Good times. :)

And of course this weekened was the holy war! BYU vs U of U!

GO UTES!!

My family came over to watch the game. I had to capture my brother and his wife and my nephew all dressed up. So cute!!

And here's the picture of the girls...minus Crystal who couldn't come. :( We missed you Crystal! I'll be sure to get a pic of me and her at Thanksgiving.

I hope everyone else had a good weekend too....and dont forget! Tomorrow is my big day! :-D

Drumset for Sale!

2008-11-16T09:31:00.003-07:00

I really need to sell my drumset. If you or anyone you know may be interested, please contact me. I'm supposed to sell it before Christmas if possible.
Spread the word for me! Thanks :)

White Pearl Drum Kit with Sabian Cymbols. Remo heads on top, with the original Pearl heads on the the bottom. Comes with throne and drumsticks.
Asking $400 OBO.
Email: princess_shelye@yahoo.com
Phone: (801)502-9651

Smartest Nephew EVER

2008-11-13T20:20:00.013-07:00

I got new shoes! I know most people dont care about trivial things like shoes...but I DO! :) Anyone that knows me is probably thinking "DUH." I tried counting once and gave up. And I've gotten tons more since I last tried. I'm addicted to shoes! These are my new Sketchers Running Shoes:

Princess Really likes them too!

I should be a shoe model! LOL...for kids

Other news...I really need to sell my drumset. Anyone know of anyone that may want a drumset?? Its in fantastic condition considering how long I've had it! Some of the drums have the original Pearl heads. Let me know if anyone is interested in purchasing this fantabulous item.

While I was taking photos to post online to sell my drumset, I got some darling photos of my nephew Jarren. I love him! He's so cute! And SOOOO smart! He was a riot playin on these!

And now, heres Jarren singing the itsy bitsy spider! He did it all by himself! So smart! Have I mentioned this kid is only 2 years old? Well..almost 3. He'll be 3 in about a month. So stinking cute!

Now heres a clip of Jarren doing jumping jacks. LOL it cracks me up. He can do the leg motions...OR the arm motions, but not really both at the same time. And yes, I am very easily entertained! I could have stayed there singing songs with him for hours! He probably knows more songs than me

Here's Jarren singing "Do as I'm doing"...He didnt know this one as well. I'm still impressed!

Here he is rockin' on the drumset! I know he's gonna be sad when I sell them.

And here is the most precious one of all! He's singing "I love to see the Temple, and then he recites the Pledge of Allegiance!

Now tell me that isn't the cutest thing ever! I know he didnt get every single word, but you show me any 2 year old that can recite the freaking pledge of alligiance. CRAZY! Bob and Jamie have done an amazing job raising this boy. And i'm so excited for my new nephew Colton Scott Goudy to be born next year!

Final thought...how come no one ever comments on my blog anymore? Or do people just really not read it?

Crafty Shel!

2008-11-08T13:46:00.005-07:00

So I haven't posted anything lately. My life has been pretty uneventful lately. Same Stress Same garbage, different day. I've taken on an artsy-ish project. I havent done anything crafty in years so who knows how it will turn out. Its kind of an experiment. I'm going to attempt to make a purse out of pop tops!

I have some awesome florescent rainbow yarn and I'm stringing the poptops. I will stitch them together after i make a few strings of them.

Here's an example of what they turn out like. I'm sure mine wont look anything like this though! I suppose I could do a belt or a necklace. How bout a bra?! :)

So other big news, its almsot my birthday!! I'm turning 26. Which of course rounds up to 30 so basically I'm turning 30 in 2 weeks! CRAZY!! I'm getting so old. I went birthday shopping last night with my momma and she bought me a new coat. Dude, this coat was only $15!! I know its not the most flattering coat, or the most high fashion. But dude, $15 bucks! Can't beat it :) Look how cheesy and happy and cute!

Ok....so this is old news, but I have the cutest nephew EVER! He's not even 3 years old and he's the smartest little kid I've ever seen! He is so adorable and I love his little voice! He has the cutest giggle. :) Just as Bobby said, his smile could make anyone feel better!

Tickles!!!

More randomness...I've decided my favorite flower is the lily. I had no idea how many kinds of lillies there were! Oriental, Sego, Water, etc. TONS! And I love them. :)

If I ever get married again, I think I'd definitly consider these!

So, I got in a car accident last week. I am so tired of accidents. It seems like my car has a great big target sign saying "HIT ME!" I've decided I need a new car because I'm invisible in mine. I'm thinking something big, bright, maybe even red. I need something NOTICEABLE! I need a vehicle that people will SEE...something like......
A hot red LIFTED jeep!

I know I'm slightly biased because I am pretty much the coolest person I know...but dang I'd look hot in this jeep!! I would need a freaking rope ladder to get in the thing, but I would seriously look hot! :)

On another really random note...I love random pics of lips. I have an entire folder on my computer dedicated to just pictures of cool eyes or lips. I found a few with sprinkles that I thought were pretty fun.

I thought to myself, how hard can that be? So I put some gewy lip gloss and a bit of honey to try and do it myself. Yeah....I didnt work very well. I guess the term "dont quit your day job" applies here....I dont think I have lip modeling (or any modeling) in my future......

LOL ok that just looks gross.....they're all falling off. I had sprinkles EVERYWHERE when I was attempting to do this. :-S

So yeah... I wont be quitting my day job. :)

Am I jumpin around all nimbly bimbly from tree to tree?

2008-11-02T18:08:00.002-07:00

So... I was telling my buddies about this video clip the other day so I just HAD to post it. Its from the movie "Super Troopers." These highway patrolman get bored on the job so they make up games. In this clip they are trying to break the record of saying "meow" at least 10 times in a conversation with the guy they pulled over. Its so classic!

Meow you listen up! :)

Halloween Pics

2008-11-01T19:33:00.002-06:00

Visits from the cutest nephew ever!

2008-10-15T19:47:00.002-06:00

Okay...I LIED!....

2008-10-15T19:44:00.000-06:00

THIS is my favorite commercial!

My two favorite commercials!

2008-10-14T20:16:00.002-06:00

Yeah, I admit it...I'm a nerd. My two very favorite commericals are both fedex commericals. Best one-liners ever!

"Like a lawnchair!"

AND... "Well said Mr. Turkeyneck!" HAHA I LOVE IT

Recycling

2008-10-14T19:46:00.005-06:00

I think these would be pretty much the coolest cubicles ever

I do like this phone...I bet it doesnt ring as much as mine does :)

That is pretty much the coolest chair ever

Yay surge protector! :)

10 Reasons...

2008-10-14T19:31:00.002-06:00

Top 10 Reasons Gay Marriage is Wrong
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning. Also apparently those homosexual animals have picked up some unnatural behavior.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

All I can say is....

2008-10-10T21:36:00.002-06:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!

SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!

New Twilight Trailer! YAY!!

ONLY 41 DAYS! YAY!

Lake Pics

2008-10-10T21:09:00.004-06:00

So, I promised a couple months ago to add more pics of my summer vacays when I got them. So...here they are! And...um..HOLY CRAP! I need to go on a diet or get on a treadmill or something. SICK!! :) But freaking good times! Note how sunburned I am when I went to Lava Hot Springs? That was a sad sad racoon face I had....

Sandra's family was so amazingly generous. I dont think I've ever met such nice people in my life! We're all gonna go do the alpine slides this winter. Cant wait!

We went to Lava Hot Springs in Idaho to celebrate Sandra's birthday. I gave her this jumbo pack of gum for her birthday cuz she goes through gum like a madwoman! :) Holy crap I got so sunburned. I had some awesome racoon eyes from the sunglasses. eww

Here we are at Bear Lake to celebrate Labor Day...Kinda. we decided to go the weekend before labor day to avoid lots of people and whatnot. Good thing too, because it ended up raining all weekend for labor day. that woulda been sad! The weather was gorgeous the weekend we went! I'd never been to bear lake before and it was an absolute freaking blast!!! We spent the day on the ski doos. My thighs were so sore for a week afterwards from clenching trying not to fall off. Which of course only worked for so many hours. Eventually at one point, we hit a wave just right and I went flying. Good times!

Dude, if I could afford one of these, I would totally do it. SO FUN!

In remembrance of Summer 2008

RIP!!

:( I'm not looking forward to being cold and wet all the time. I really need to get out of Utah. I was not made for cold weather!

I got Tagged...thanks Jessi :P

2008-10-07T22:19:00.002-06:00

8 things I'm passionate about:
1. Pirates
2. My Babies
3. Music
4. Living for yourself, finding ways to be happy
5. Shoes
6. Tinkerbell Stuff
7. My turtle collection
8. Gay Rights!

8 words/phrases I use often:
1. "I'm not even kidding"
2. "I'm not gonna lie"
3. Seriously...
4. DUDE!!
5. For realsies!
6. WTF (and I actually say Double-You-Tee-Eff")
7. "Fatty wants food"
8. "I'm retarded" but its more like "I'm rheethaaardedth" with a lisp

8 things I want to do before I die:
1. Get my CPC
2. Have a place of my own
3. Work somewhere other than the ENT Center
4. Be a single digit size pant
5. Finish reading the sword of truth series
6. Learn to surf!
7. Learn to speak Spanish
8. Move to Cali

8 things I've learned in the past:
1. Men suck
2. Men cant be trusted
3. God loves everyone, even the jerks and stupid people out there
4. marriage is over rated
5. Gay men make the best friends in the world
6. Because I've been hurt so much, I dont trust anyone, and i'm the worlds worst skeptic
8. Humor is the best medicine

8 things I currently want/need:
1. a breath mint
2. Mrs. Schmishmortion
3. A lifted red jeep!
4. Laser hair removal
5. a diet
6. A vacation
7. diet cherry pepsi
8. a new job

8 places I want to see/visit:
1. Sydney
2. Hawaii
3. India
4. Paris
5. DC
6. London
7. Jen :)
8. Oceanside!

8 people I tag:
1. Jen
2. Crystal
3. Jay
4. Rusty
5. Alyson
6. Morgan

I'm a Liberal Conserv-repub-licrat

2008-10-05T22:48:00.004-06:00

I wanna thank everyone who has commented on my last blog. I know its a hard issue for people to wanna talk about, but I appreciate everyone's feedback. I'm no expert, and I never claimed to be. I only have my own feelings and what it sums up to is that God loves us all. I know with all my heart God loves each and every individual depsite race, creed, gender, and sexual orientation. I also believe that homosexuality is not a choice, I know in my heart that it was we are genetically programed before birth. My sister said it so eloquently: "God is perfect, or so they say. So why would he genetically engineer people to be homosexual if he didn't love them that way. And it's not a choice. Any who think people choose a life of ridicule, inequality, abuse, unacceptance, and even violence, is not only ignorant but completely insane, in my less than humble opinion." AMEN SISTA!

An LDS scientist by the name of Dr. William Bradshaw, of BYU's biology department was seen on the tv show 60 minutes to discuss genetic research he has done which he believes proves that homosexuality is a result of biologial orientation due to different hormones and genes. Here is a link to an article in the BYU newsletter (published by BYU) about Dr. Bradshaw's believe that people do not choose to be gay, but that it is a genetic predisposition: http://newsnet.byu.edu/story.cfm/49488

Yes, I do believe people often "choose" the homosexual lifestyle" because nowadays its considered "cool" or "hip." But I dont think people should judge true, natural born gays, with people that want to be gay for the wrong reasons.

Ok, now I want to share some political thoughts. I do not consider myself republican, or democratic, or conservative, or even liberal. I do not want to label myself by a particular party. I choose to vote based on policies and principals, not by a "party." If if were to choose a party, I guess you could say I am pretty liberal. But even though I'm a liberal person, I'm still very very conservative. I guess I'm just a walking contradiction. but I dont like to limit m y choices in life. I think each situation needs to be reviewed from all angles. I won't go into it more than that. But what I will say is that I will not vote for Obama. I wish I could. But I will not do it. And I'm not voting for him for many reasons. Its not cause he's black, it has NOTHING to do with race. It has nothing to do with him being a democrat, despite my history of voting republican. Its because I dont think he has the knowledge and experience required to run our nation. I hate his views and he's ideals. I hate that he wants to raise taxes. I hate that he blames Bush for our nations problems. Our economy would be horrible with or without Bush having been elected.

I want to specify that I didn't want to vote for McCain, but I WILL vote for McCain because I refuse to vote for Obama. I do not necessarily agree with all of McCain's views, but just like our last election 4 years ago, its all about "choosing the lesser of two evils." Yes, I voted for Bush 4 years ago, and yes I get lectured and harrassed all the time about it. But I still stand by my vote, and I still support Bush. I didn't want to vote for him, but I truely believe this nation woulda gone to hell had John Kerry became our president.

My BFF had this video clip on her blog, and I totally stole it. I love how passionate he is about his true beliefs, and I love that he can present himself with humor yet still be so educated and well spoken. I hope that you will all take 10 minutes out of your busy schedules and watch what this man has to say.

Its called "BTW I'm voting for McCain/Palin." FREAKING AWESOME!

I dare you to read all of this...

2008-10-01T22:20:00.004-06:00

Ok...so there's a topic I've been wanting to vent about, but I've been scared, nervous, hesitant, etc. I dont know if scared is the correct word, because I'm not afraid to express my opinions and beliefs. I am, however, hesitant to approach such a hot topic when I am no expert and I cannot express anything but opinions rather than facts. But here goes. The topic is regarding homosexuality in the LDS church.

I was reading a blog of a friend of mine and she was laughing at this "hysterical" joke her husband made regarding an LDS member that was excommunicated because he supports gay marriage. Here is the direct quote from her blog: {"Duh, if he knows ANYTHING about our church, it is that it is all about a family and marriage. And marriage goes all the way back to Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve!!!"I thought his comment was so funny that I almost peed my pants laughing. }

I'll be honest, though I consider the writer of this blog a good friend of mine, I was really upset by their blatant ignorance regarding this topic. I had to close my laptop and walk away so that I didn't post a rude comment on her blog telling her how I felt about such a "joke." I am VERY aware that the LDS church does not support homosexuality or gay marriage. All I keep thinking to myself is wow, he is ignorant. Now, the term ignorant is defined by Merriam-Webster as: destitute of knowledge or education ; also : lacking knowledge or comprehension of the thing specified b: resulting from or showing lack of knowledge or intelligence . In fact as I'm posting this, I feel like I'm having deja vu. Wow. I really feel like I've typed this blog before, but I know I haven't. Maybe I've just dealt with a lot of ignorant people lately.

Now, I want to apologize in advance if I may offend anyone with this blog, but I feel like because this is MY blog I have the write to express MY opinion. The writer of the above quoted blog may very well read this, and if you are, please accept my apology if I offend you. However, I request that you hear out what I have to say.

My best friend is a gay mormon. Of course, he no longer can participate in the LDS church. He has shared with me a book called "No More Goodbyes" by an LDS author-Carol Lynn Pearson. I haven't yet finished the book, but I've already read so many profound thoughts that I really suggest every LDS person out there consider reading her books. You can visit her website here: http://www.clpearson.com/. She has also written a book called "Goodbye, I love you." This book was written about her own experiences with her husband who was gay, and died of AIDS. Her experiences are so very touching and it really puts a new perspective on the topic of homosexuality in the LDS church.

I am NO expert regarding religion, and I cannot quote prophets or give you direct scriptures. What I do believe is that God loves ALL of his children. This is a simple fact that I was taught since i was a young child in primary. Do you really think God picks and chooses who to love? Of course not! No one will ever make me belief that God loves Sara more than Sammy because Sara goes to church every sunday and Sammy misses church to take care of his sick grandpa. Just as I believe God doesn't hate my best friend because of his lifestyle. GOD LOVES EVERYONE!!!!

We as human beings have absolutely no right to judge or criticize anyone. We do have the right to disagree, absolutely. It is our God-given, American right to have our own free will and freedom of choice. If you choose to hate gays, fine. But keep your hatred to yourself. Although you may hate the homosexual lifestyle, it is NOT your responsibility to judge or criticize others. Leave that to God, please. No one is perfect. If you were perfect, you would have transcended already. So dont you dare judge me or anyone else. (I'm not saying this to anyone in particular, just in general-we as humans have no right to judge anyone.)

In the books "No More Goodbyes" there is a quote from a young man in response to an article published in the BYU "Daily Universe" which stated: "I read a recent letter to the editor [of your newspaper] with great regret. The author compared my friends and me to murders, satanists, prostitutes, pedophiles, and partakers of beastiality. Imagine having to live with this rhetoric constantly behind spewed at you." The man who wrote this later committed suicide, as do many mormon homosexuals. The constant judgement and criticism of other church members is often the cause of gay suicides.

While reading "No More Goodbyes" there is an entire chapter dedicated to the lack of choices gay mormons have. She mentions how many LDS members commit suicide because they cannot face life with the challenge they are presented. It basically comes down to only two acceptable choices for active LDS members: a life long of complete celibacy, or marrying heterosexual partners. CL Pearson specifically says "most of those marriages have ended in extreme sorrow. A few of the marriages are still intact, with the partners experiencing some satisfaction along with significant difficulty." The other option (which is not approved by the church) is of course, leaving the church and living the lifestyle they cannot deny. I wish I could quote every line of this book, as she phrases it all so eloquently.

There was a study in 2000 that estimated that 5% of people are gay. I imagine this rate has increased significantly over the past few years as homosexuality has gradually become more culturally acceptable. At that rate, at a large family Thanksgiving dinner, the statistics say at least one person would be gay.

(No More Goodbyes, pg 11) "But--but they're not REALLY gay are they?" That is the hope of many of us. "They're really just "so-called gays" who are actually heterosexuals suffering from same -sex attraction that can be healed, aren't they?" CL Pearson mentions that was the exact hope that she had when she married her gay husband. They hoped that being in a loving, committed, heterosexual relationship would cure him of his same sex attraction. They had four children together, who they loved dearly, but this could not change what his own instincts were.

Unfortunately NOTHING can make a gay person straight. Yes, you can choose to ignore your natural instincts, but there is NO CURE. People in the past have tried-they underwent shock therapy, allowing electrodes to burn their genitals, which of course did not cure them. Nowadays, people will fast and pray until near madness, but this doesnt work. Pearson goes on to say "Yes yes, they're really gay. How will this work out in the eternities? I am comfortable leaving that in the hands of God. But for this lifetime, there are people who are truly homosexual, meaning that they fall in love only with people of their own sex and desire with them emotional and physical intimacy."

Do people really think God would rather a gay person marry a straight person and make both of them miserable, just to make it to the highest kingdom of glory? No, I personally don't think so. God loves of us, and therefore wants us to all be happy. If a gay person thinks marriage is the right choice for them, I applaud their efforts and wish them the best of luck. However, (and this is the best quote of the book so far):

"Sleeping in the garage does not make you a car. Nor does sleeping with a heterosexual spouse make you straight."

Seriously? I love this book. It is so refreshing to read an open minded non-judgmental LDS view of homosexuality. The quote goes on to say: "A large number of gay people I know who have slept for years with their straight spouses without it making a slightest impact on their sexual orientation lead me to believe it would be an impossible assignment to take a truly heterosexual person and turn him or her into a gay person. Which brings us to a major point that must be understood. Both straights and gays discover rather than decide their sexual feelings.

C.L. Pearson mentions that as our times change, our views and perspectives and lives change. In Deuteronomy Chapter 14 it is mentioned that it was an abomination in the sight of God for you to eat meat of swine, rabbit, or shellfish. Do we consider this an abomination now? Of course not! Who doesn't love bacon with their breakfast? Laws/rules/abominations/etc change depending on the times. Take polygamy for example. At the time the LDS church was first organized, it was common and acceptable for men to have multiple wives. This of course was changed later. The church no longer accepts and supports polygamy. Things change depending on the times and the situations. I have my own opinions regarding this matter. It may sound blasphemous, so please realize this is just my own opinions. I really honestly think that one day the church will fully accept homosexuals into the church. Back when the church was founded, we did not allow black people to hold the priesthood, that has changed n ow. I believe that the same will happen with gays. Although it is against the doctrine in our times, I honestly think one day the church will accept and love gays just the same as they love and accept everyone else, black, white, purple, males, females, etc. No matter what color, gender, ethnicity, or sexual orientation.

My best friend "came out" to her parents recently, and it was a horrible experience for her. It breaks my heart to see people rejected from their own families. Her mom said "what do you want from me?" and she said "All I want is your love and support." Her mom's response was "so you think i need to be gay too? because being gay is the only way to support you." OF COURSE NOT! You don't have to be gay to support gays. All they want is love and support and equal rights. You may not approve of their life decisions, but shouldn't you still love them like all your other children, and just like you did before they came out? Ridiculous. My response to her " you have to gay to support gays" comment was this. Do you have to be a democrat to support a democratic president? If Obama wins the election, are you going to refuse to support him?? Are you going to move to another country? No of course not! You dont have to be republican to support republicans, or vise versa. That theory is just beyond ridiculous.

Ok, I really should shut up. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. But I'm NOT sorry for expressing my opinions. We are all Gods children and he loves us no matter what. He loves us whether we are male or female, black, white, purple, red, blue, whether we are republic, democratic, liberal, whatever! He loves us whether we are sinners or active church goers. He loves us whether we are gay, straight, bisexual, transgender, etc. No matter what, no matter who we are or what we look like or what we believe, God loves each of his children no matter what. And although the church currently believes in "Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve" we as human beings have absolutely no right to judge anyone else. If you are perfect, you will be transcended and then I wont have to deal with you. In the meantime, everyone else left here on earth, be nice! LOVE EVERYONE!! If your goal is to be Christ-like, then you can start by loving everyone. Ok. I'm done. Thanks for reading, and I hope you wont be afraid to comment back and tell me if you think i'm a freak. :) And on a final note, I absolutely DO believe in, and support gay marriage. And I really believe that eventually (though probably not in my lifetime) gay marriage will be legal, and accepted, and gays will be able to hold the priesthood and enjoy the blessings of the gospel without being rejected.

...um...Can I get an Amen? HALLELUJAH! :)

Castle of Chaos

2008-09-14T22:33:00.004-06:00

Yes, Its that time of year! Castle of Chaos haunted house is officially open! That is what I've been doing on the weekends now. I won't lie, it was hard for me to go back there considering all the memories associated with Phil. But it has been a lot more fun than I thought it would be. They have definitely improved the haunt this year! I hope you all come down and see us!

Above is the owner of Castle, who has been a a huge support for me over these past few years. Below is my hero Jesse as the "Mad Scientist" in our "Terror in 3-D" :)

We are located at 3300 South and West Temple in South Salt Lake. I hope you will all come down and help support us. Proceeds go to the Boys and Girls Club. Please go to our website for more details:

www.castleofchaos.com

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I also want to pay a random tribute to Matt Stone and Trey Parker. I freaking love them so very much.

They are comedy geniuses!

They have created genius films and tv shows for so many years, and they just keep getting better and better. They are my heroes!

Good times! I love them and I wanna marry them both! LOL

My vote + My love life through song lyrics

2008-09-11T21:53:00.004-06:00

I have a few random thoughts that I want to share. First off, politics schmolitics! Forget Obama, I'm voting Chuck Norris for president! He can roundhouse kick those terrorist arses! Nobody messes with Chuck Norris.

2nd thought. I have discovered many songs lately that just touch me so deeply and really truely inspire me. Sometimes, the source of such inspiration can surprise you. My song of the day is "Dance Floor Anthem" by Good Charlotte who says it so perfectly: "Throw up your hands and say I dont wanna be in love!"

Another song that I absolutely freaking LOVE is called "Damaged" by Plummet. The lyrics are how I feel right now with all the drama I've been deeling with. I am damaged. Seriously, read these lyrics. So simple yet so so strong.

Dreaming comes so easily,
Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale;
I'm damaged So how would i know?
I'm scared and I'm alone,
I'm ashamed and I need for you too know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to
But you can't take back What you've taken away
Cause I feel I feel you, near me(repeat)
healing comes so painfullyAnd it chills to the bone
will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged as I'm sure you know
I'm scared And I'm alone and I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
But you cant take back
What you've taken away
Cause I feel youI feel you, near me (repeat)
There is nothing before my soul
into this fear forgiveness for a man
who is stronger
I was just a little girl
but i cant go back
can't go back
I can't go back
I must go on

09/09/2006

2008-09-09T19:33:00.005-06:00

2 years ago today I said "I do" to the man I loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Today has been kind of a rough day not celebrating my anniversary, and knowing that my husband is living with another woman and no longer loves me. Most days I'm perfectly fine and I'm certain I'm over him. But today I spoke to my mother in law (soon to be ex-mother-in-law). Everytime I talk to her it makes me depressed all over again. I really miss Phil, and even though I know it's over and I know i'm better off without him, I still really miss him. We had some really good times and I will never doubt that he used to love me. I mean, look at the way we are gazing into each other's eyes? We were very in love. :(

This was the pic we used on our wedding announcements. Look how happy we were together. :( It hurts to know that we lost that happiness. I really did think we would be together forever.

Getting divorced sucks. No easy way around it. I am so tired of arguing and fighting and yelling and being hurt. I found this pic online and it really fits what most divorce is like. How can two people how are so in love end up hating each other?

It boggles my mind.

I hope that others who are, or may eventually be, going through divorce can be civil and be adults and still try to be friends. Not every divorced couple should have to be miserable and fight all the time. :( This is so depressing. Although I know with all my heart that I'm better off without him, and that he has moved on, it still hurts to not have him, and to wonder what I did wrong. *sigh*

Yearbook Pics

2008-09-06T12:05:00.006-06:00

So Jen introduced me to this awesome website!

http://www.yearbookyourself.com/

You can put a pic of yourself in and see what you would have looked like back in the dizz-zay! So freaking funny!
(Apparently I wasn't photogenic back then either!)

Shelye in 1966

1977

1978

1982 (The year I was born!)

1984

1990

1994

LOL Good Times :)

Re-post...A MUST SEE!

2008-09-04T18:13:00.004-06:00

I know I have already posted this clip before, but I insist on posting it again, and hope that you will ALL take 2 minutes out of your life to watch it. I work in the healthcare industry and it doesn't matter how many times I watch this clip, I bust up laughing!

Summer Festivities 2008

2008-09-02T20:32:00.013-06:00

WOW! I cannot believe summer is over! Not that us working adults get an actual "summer." All the days blur together anymore. Getting old sucks. Anyways, I've been horrible as far as posting pics on my blog of my summer activities. Bad Blogger Award! So lets start at the begining of summer. I went to Lava Hot Springs with my girl Sandra. My batteries died in my camera after like 3 pics, so this is all I got:

The water was so amazingly warm! It was so relaxaing! I definitely want to go again. We also spent most of the day rafting down the river. It was such a blast!
Here is me (pre-sunburn):

And here is Sandra applying sunscreen for the zillionth time! She's a vampire (and proud of it!)

In July I went to DCI (Drum Corps International) at WSU. It brought back a flood of memories! I haven't been in the marching band in nearly a decade and it was great to reminisce!

Cutest picture EVER! I'm not sure if D was more entralled with the cheetos or the drum corps:

Man I totally miss drumline. Especially the base line. :)

This band was my favorite! They did "Thriller" and even put down their instruments to dance the Thriller Dance! Awesome!

Maybe the Thriller dance was too exhausting? Drumline decided to take a nap mid-show? Love it!

I liked this band because the men were oh-so butch and masculine!

Wow...The formations!

Fantastic times! Thanks to Troy and Jen for allowing me to tag along! And it was also fantastic to run into Mark & Connie and their families too. I also ran into a girl from work. Small world in the marching band community, eh?

On July 24th it was Jo's official De-Vegitarianism party! Most people were rather confused at what this meant. Jo became a vegetarian on July 24th exactly 10 years before. She has deciced to eat meat again. (I'm not sure why-but I think it has to do with need more protein in her diet.) So she had this party at the Olive Garden and we had like 5 tables full of people.

I think there were at least 30 people there to witness Jo finally eat meat after a decade!

This is me and Jen in front of the Olive Garden:

Jo deciding if she can really go through with this:

She looks so pretty! Despite being overwhelmed with like 20 kinds of meat products (Fish, chicken, steak, etc)

Here is a pic of my good friends Jill and Jen at the Olive Garden. Yay! Good times.

Ok....now lets see. Random goofy summer times! Jen and I having sunglass contests?

Getting Jen her fake tattoo? (Dude-she's gonna kill me when she sees this pic is posted on here for the whole world to see!)

And then Last weekend I went to Bear Lake with Sandra and her family. My camera wasn't working, and I was afraid to take my good camera so this is all I have for now. Sandra's brother has promised to email me his pictures which will look a lot better. I'll update with those as soon as I have them. Here's me and San, the hottest hotties there!

And here are the waverunners we rented! So much freaking fun! I had more fun on these seadoos than i've had in years! I even fell off at one point. My legs were so sore from being tense and holding myself on the machine that after a few hours my legs just gave out. We were doing figure 8's and we hit our own wake and I just went flying. It was fun though! I love flying and swimming so it was a good mix. :) Poor Robert though, he felt so bad, not to mention I almost dragged him into the water with me!

Good times! It was such a fun summer, I'm sad to see it over. However, I love autumn and I will hopefully continue to have great times. I thought the summer would be difficult without Phil, but I've discovered how many great true friends I have that get me out of my house and keep me from getting lonely. I'm so grateful for everyone out there helping me to get over all the drama and emotional garbage in my life. I am especially grateful to my pyro friends like Jenny and JJ. You have welcomed me back to pyro even without Phil and have truely shown that you guys like me, and didnt just "put up with be" because I was Phil's wife. I wish I had better photos of the pyro from this summer. There were some good shows! One of our shows even hit the news this year. There was a fire at our Magna show! (I wasn't there, I was at the Lagoon show). Here is a pic from KSL:

Here is the link to the article by the Deseret News:http://www.deseretnews.com/article/1,5620,700241252,00.html

And a short video clip taken by a spectator:

Hours of wholesome entertainment...

2008-08-31T22:52:00.006-06:00

Wow, 3 blogs in one week? I'm on a roll! I have to post the coolest thing ever. My awesome sister introduced me to this awesomely fantastic website. It ranks up there with the "throw rocks at boys" link I posted a couple months ago. Everyone loves bubble wrap, right? Yeah, bubble wrap rules!!

Click this link to pop some bubbles!!!

http://www.danpat.fi/janne/flash/kuplamuovi.swf

The best part is if you click "Fresh Sheet" it has a woman saying "must have moooore" like she's desperate. I love it! bubble wrap junkie :-D

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So I have been considering getting a Saggitarius tattoo. I think I'll add a poll to the side. Let me know which one you prefer. (Doesn't mean I'll even get one-I just wanna hear your opinion.) Be sure to vote on the poll to the right!

Option A) Arrow with backwards S (For Shelye??)

Option B) Blue arrow with design around it

Option C) Simple arrow, slightly curved center line

Option D) Celtic Knot arrow

Option E) Chunky/Thick colored Arrow

Option F) Simple Arrow

Now go vote!!!!

Together we can make a stand

2008-08-30T20:20:00.003-06:00

Hey lookie! Shelye is being semi-politcal again! This is getting kinda scary. But this time I'm gonna let someone else do the talking. A few years ago this song was popular but I havent heard it in years. I actually really love the message she is portraying. Listen to the words! For reals, its pretty true. Basically saying how messed up people are. I love this song. :) Read the words and have a listen!

"Stand" by Jewel
Walk in a corner shop
See a shoplifting cop
See the old lady with a gun
See the hero try to run
Nothing's what it seems, I mean
It's not all dirty, but it's not all clean
There's children paying bills
There's monks buying thrills
There's pride for sale in magazines
There's pills for rent to make you clean
Marvin Gaye, there's no brother, brother
Woody Guthrie's land can't feed Mother

[CHORUS]
Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one to blame
For all the pain that life brings
If you will just take me It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand

A waitress brings me lunch
We meet but do not touch
On TV, D.C. is selling lies
While in the corner, King's dream dies
Go to the counter, pay for me and my friend
A homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him
The mayor has no cash
He said he spent it on hookers and hash
[CHORUS]
you will love me, I will love you
Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one to blame
For all the pain that life brings
If you will just take me It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand

Love/Hate

2008-08-28T10:59:00.005-06:00

It is no secret that I am not a politcal person. I rarely stand up for anything. I tend to see multiple sides of every issue and am uncomfortable "picking a side." To this day I have been unable to pick a political party. I am not a democrat, i'm not a republican, I don't vote for a particular party, I vote based on people and their own personal stands. I guess I will call myself a republocrat? I like that. Or Demolican? Conservicrat? Conservrican? Democonservrican? Who knows! I am still in shock that it's almost election time again, and I have no idea who I'll vote for, or even if I'll vote at all. Everyone always says "your vote matters!" But does it really? And even if it does, is that something I want to deal with?? I voted for Bush. And everyone is always dissing him and saying what a horrible president he is. Why should I vote when people end up hating the decision anyway? I can't necessarily say I agree with President Bush's actions these past years. But I SUPPORT THEM! There's a different between supporting someone than agreeing with them. I think we all need to support our troops whether or not we think they should be out there fighting someone else's war. I can't imagine how it must feel for the families that are losing their loved ones then to hear us stupid americans criticize the war. These people are losing their lives and they don't have our support! What the?? I think the important part is sticking together as a country. We elected Bush, so even if you didnt vote for him, since the decision was made, we should all stand by him. I don't care if you dont like him or agree with him, we need to all be united and stand together. Good grief people! I am excited/anxious/nervous to see what the new year and new president will bring. I'm worried what will happen to this country if we do withdraw from the war in Iraq, but I dont necessarily agree with the war.

Next subject...racism. I'm so sick and tired of dealing with racist people. I saw this shirt and I almost want to buy it!!

I guess to an extent I can be kind of racist. But It's a natural defense mechanism for me now. I do not consider myself racist at all, I'm just being honest. I'm tired of seeing african americans and hispanics get all these bonuses such as amazing scholarships to college just because of their heritage. I don't think its fair!!! Because I'm a boring plain ol' white girl, I don't get anything. And quite frankly, I am the minority now! I walk into a Walmart and I'm like one of 3 other white people surrounded by blacks, hispanics, tongans, samoans, etc etc etc. Whites are the minority! I wish I could get an awesome scholarship cuz I glow in the dark. Plus then I think about getting a job. I would make so much more money if I spoke Spanish! I was looking through the classifieds this week and most of the job posts required bilingual applicants. Grr! We are in freaking America, and yet the immigrants get paid more money than me in my line of work because they can speak other languages. Yeah...real fair.

Ok...and now religion! I'm tired of "Utah Mormons." People are so judgemental and critical. It drives me bananas! I have a particular accquaintance that won't have friends if they aren't active LDS church-goers. I know as young LDS girl I was raised to only have LDS friends. I was always told that it was for the best to have only LDS friends so that you wouldnt get tempted to do bad things or be negatively influenced. I have grown up a lot since then and I disagree. I think we should be friends with EVERYONE despite gender, race, skin color, family or social history, and especially religion. GOD LOVES ALL OF HIS CHILDREN!! C'mon people! Do you really think God loves his Methodist children less than his LDS children? No freaking way! God loves me even though I'm not an active church goer. And in our quest to be come more Christ-like, shouldnt we all be friends with everyone? If Christ can love everyone, so can we. How can you reject someone because of religion? That isn't Christ-like at all.

I love the South Park perspective of what mormons believe. I'm sure most people have seen this clip, but its a CLASSIC!

I recently saw a bumber sticker that I feel absolutely in love with! It looks similar to this:

How cool is that? Co-Exist. Such a simple phrase that means so very much. Growing up in Utah, I'll admit that I only had LDS friends, but that is because I didnt know anyone that wasn't LDS. I went to Westminster College for a year, that was founded by the Protestant Church. A few blocks away from Westminster is Judge Catholic Memorial High School, which is a private Catholic school. The majority of those students went to Westminster with me. I was so naive about other religions and beliefs. Its made me really look into my own life and my own beliefs. And the only thing I truely still believe is that God loves everyone, every religion, everywhere. Co-exist!! At work, my department is actually pretty diverse (for Utah standards). I work with a Mormon, an ex-Mormon, a buddhist, and a muslim. And I love these people and we all bring something different to the table, and a unique perspective. I love it. :) And I hope we can all learn to love everyone despite religion, race, color, history, etc.

Just

YAY!

2008-08-19T20:19:00.003-06:00

DUDE! It's been a freaking crazy couple of weeks! So many weird random things in my life. Who needs normal, right? First off, I found out that Phil's new girlfriend is pregnant. Due in 6 months. Phil left me about 3 months ago. Hmm...do the math. Crazy. Anyways, Phil didn't even know that I knew about the baby, and he called and left me a very heartfelt apology. And I know he meant it. He was in tears and sooo upset. I believe he was completely sincere in his apology too. That was the first time he has apologized to me since all the drama happened and since he left me. It made me feel better about things that he's finally man enough to apologize for all the hurt he's caused me. So that's good. I had a hard time when I first found out his girlfriend is pregnant because I wanted to be the mother of his children. But I have realized over the last few months that I'm better off without him, or his babies. I am ok. Good news, eh? :)

So work is pretty crazy lately. Busy Busy Busy! I suppose working in the medical field gives me good job security. Speaking of.... I got this clip emailed to me and its pretty much the coolest thing I have EVER EVER SEEN!!!!

ANNNNNDDDDD!!! in other FABULOUS news! Because Harry Potter opening this fall has been moved until next summer, that means the Twilight has been moved 3 weeks earlier!!! Its now opening November 21st, the weekend of my birthday! AND we have that day off work so I can go see it over and over! HOORAY!!!! Here is the latest Twilight Trailer which I'm absolutely ecstatic for!

Dude...and I just found this awesome spoof! Haha...it cracked me up. Only the true twilighters out there will get it though. :D

Ask me anything!

2008-08-10T07:01:00.002-06:00

100 Things about Shelye

2008-08-09T18:37:00.008-06:00

I guess I've been tagged... Here are 100 random things about me...

1. I hate the term "vertically challanged." Just say I'm short, it sounds less offensive to me! Just like I'd rather be called "fat" than "obese" :)
2. I'm addicted to text messaging. Anyone that wants to text me, I'll give ya my number. Support my addiction!
3. My left eye is more than twice as blind as my right eye.
4. I'm attracted to punks, skaters, and gothics. I think piercings, tattoos, and bright colored hair is sexy.
5. I'm completely addicted to America's Next Top Model. I have seen almost every season at least 3 times completely. (Except for the newest season as I have yet to see re-runs on yet).
6. I'm also addicted to House. Dr. House may be a jerk, but I heart him.
7. I have a new-found addiction to the O.C. :) Its still a new one for me, but I plan to be an expert.
8. My favorite color is florescent green.
9. I own probably more than 100 pairs of shoes. (I haven't counted in a couple years though, so the exact number is unknown.)
10. I can fit into a size 2 children's shoe.
11. I'm addicted to DVD's. When Phil and I split up that was the hardest thing to divide for me. I had to give up so many movies.
12. I went to an Ivy League college....but dropped out after one year because I got mono.
13. I hate the number 13. It's my unlucky number.
14. I have the world's best friends. No one can dispute me on this. Period. :)
15. I have been working at my job since i was 17 years old. I'm very good at arguing with insurance companies and winning. NERD ALERT!
16. I love Jen. <3>
17. I'm addicted to sunflower seeds.
18. I have veneers.
19. I am a proud owner of a Hyundai Sonata. Anyone that wants to diss Hyundais, is gonna have a real fight with me, as I effin love my Hillary. (Yes, thats my cars name.) :)
20. My all time favorite movie is Real Genius with Val Kilmer.
21. My 2nd all time favorite movie is Top Secret with Val Kilmer.
22. I love pyro. I work with Vortex Fireworks and I'm excited to be involved in their shows again. Last night I learned all about how the fireworks are shot electronically and helped set up. 23. I also think Firemen are the sexiest "men in uniforms."
24. 24 is my favorite number. Its also my birthday.
25. I have a theory that all men look good in Kilts. You can be fat, ugly, skinny, weird, goofy, or whatever. It doesnt matter what you look like, if you are in a kilt, you become insta-sexy.
26. I will be turning 26 this year. 26 rounds up to 30. So basically I'm turning 30 this year. Thats a really scary thought.
27. I am addicted to the soundtrack of Sweeney Todd. Sick huh?
28. I will always consider my father in law my dad, despite getting divorced.
29. I collect turtles. I have zillions. :) And yes, I do get made fun of.
30. I also collect Tinkerbells. I have zillions of those as well. Not as many as I do turtles though.
31. I want to get a tattoo of Tinkerbell. I rather like this gothic Tink:

32. My favorite drink is Diet Cherry Pepsi.
33. I am really addicted to board games.
34. My favorite bands are: New Found Glory, MxPx, My Chemical Romance, Sum 41, Paramore, Flyleaf, Breaking Benjamin, Skillet, and many many more.
35. I have a new love for Katy Perry. Her songs fit my life. I swear she knows me and wrote about my life. :)
36. I have 3 beautiful kitties. Princess, Chelsea Blue, and Tinkerbell. Unforunately, I only have "custody" of Princess right now. Phil still has my other two babies. :(

37. I'm a germ freak. I won't touch escalator handles or bathroom door handles, or any public doors with my bare hands if I can at all possibly avoid it. Sometimes ya can't, but I sure try!
38. I'm newly addicted to the Twilight series.
39. But my favorite series ever is the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodking. LOVE THEM!
40.

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41. I am addicted to office supplies. I get more excited shopping for pens and sticky notes than I do for clothes!
42. I can type fast. I don't remember how fast, but at one point I tested at like 120 wpm.
43. I'm even better at the 10-key than I am at typing.
44. I'm a nerd. :) And proud of it!
45. I love Scrubs! The show, i mean. Well, I like wearing scrubs too. We get to wear scrubs on Fridays for "casual friday" at my work.
46. I want to marry Seth Cohen from the OC. :)
47. I want to learn to surf someday.
48. I used to go sailing a lot. I love to sail. (and NOT with a motorized boat.) We used to have a hobbie cat. Man that was some good times. We sold it a few years ago to pay for my brothers wedding.
49. I am allergic to pretty much everything except dust. I had testing done, and my results were off the wall, that even the doctors were surprised.
50. This is taking forever and I'm only halfway done!
51. I want to learn to belly dance someday. Chunky women make better belly dancers! Its a proven fact.
52. I used to be a paying member of the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronism.) Go to http://www.sca.org/. This is a non profit organization where a bunch of us freaks dress up and recreate medieval history. We have personnas that we become and there is sword fighting, and archery, and art and dancing and singing. I love it so very much. I probably should get back into it again.
53. I have the world's best sister EVER!! I wish I would have realized that when I was younger. We didn't really get to know each other until we were adults.
54. I'm legally a midget. :)
55. I "COULD" get a handicapped parking pass for being a midget. :)
56. I'm barely tall enough to not have to use a booster seat in the car! Apparently parents have to keep kids in booster seats until they are 4'9". My doctor measured me at 4'9 1/2" at my last visit. Yes! No booster seat for me! Passed by a half inch! SCORE!
57. Your mom goes to college.
58. I beat my addiction to myspace. I am clean and sober now! I can go weeks without checking it now. :)
59. Too bad facebook is the new myspace....
60. I love bubble baths
61. I love 80's hair metal!!
62. I love camping. I want to go so bad. Being single makes that hard cuz I have no single friends to go with.
63. I have the absolute best mom on the planet. She really is my hero. she is so giving and generous. She genuinely wants to help others without worrying about herself. If I ever grow up (which is doubtful at this point) I wanna be just like her. She loves everyone and isn't judgemental. She really is my hero!!
64. My dad may seem quiet and shy, but he's a freaking riot!! My dad is hilarious when you never expect it. Its almost weird that he's funny. Kinda creeps me out. LOL
65. I also have the cutest nephew in the entire planet! Jarren is so stinking smart! He's gonna be a rocket scientist one day and pay for his aunty shelye to live in luxury!
66. I'm going to be an aunt again!!!! My baby brother and his gorgeous wifey are having a baby!! I'm so excited for them. It'll be a stinkin cute baby! And give Jarren his first Goudy cousin!
67. I'm no longer in love with Phil. This is a huge relief to me to finally get to start moving on. Now I just wish my divorce was final.
68. I love thrill rides. I love amusment parks and I very badly want to try the catapult and sky coaster at lagoon. I'm scared I'll admit it. but I love being thrilled.
69. I love water and water sports. I never could get "up" while water skiing, but I love boating and swimming, and tubing, and ANYTHING to do with water. I think i was a fish in a past life.
70. My favorite store is Ross. EVER. period. end of story
71. I am a perfectionist. I know it doesn't seem like it, but I am. In many ways (depending on what i'm doing) i'm soooo OCD!
72. I really enjoy pottery. I miss it.
73. I get migraines. :( I have one today in fact. I've had migraines since I was 11 years old. When I was in 5th grade, they even thought I had a brain tumor and I had to undergo all sorts of testing. Which isn't a big deal, but is pretty tramatic when you're that young.
74. My favorite video game is Smash Brothers.
75. My favorite Smash Brothers character to be is Kirby.
76. My 2nd favorite video game is tetris. I RULE at tetris.
77. One day when I have my own home, I want to devote an entire room just for meditation. I want it to look like one of those fancy holistic spas. With dim lighting and earthy music or native american flute music or something, with candles and water fountains and insense and stuff. I want a room that I can escape to and just think. Thats a dream i've had for years. It'd be even better if I had my own personal maseuse in there to massage me whenever i needed it. I sure hope I'm rich one day!
77. I LOVE vegas. I know its "sin city" but I effin love it! Its my second favorite place in the world.
78. My first favorite place is Oceanside, CA. I know its random, but I think i was meant to live by the beach. I've only been there a few times, but everytime i've been its been such an amazing experience. I love it so very much. I love swimming and laying out. I really want to learn to surf. See? I totally was a fish in a pst life!
79. I love to people watch. I could spent hours sitting at the mall or Lagoon or even walmart just watching people. People are crazy and it fascinates me!
80. My favorite sound is a cat purring.
81. I have 3 favorite smells. I love the way it smells after it rains. I LOVE the smell of wet cement. As child I used to lick the cement and sniff it. Wierd huh? I also love the smell of saw dust. I guess part of that may be because my dad is a carpenter. and my newest favorite smell (a recently aquired one) is the smell of Jen. She wears this amazing abercrombie perfume that is to die for!
82. One of my biggest pet peeves is when people put the toilet paper on the roll backwars. The paper should fall toward you, not away from you. I usually change it if I see it wrong. LOL am i twisted or what? I dont like it sticking to the wall before I use it. I also HATE IT when people do not replace the roll when they use the last of it.
83. Ever since I was a little girl I wished I was an Indian. (As in India-not native american.) I love Indian culture! I love their clothes, and dancing, and music, and their gorgeous light brown skin.
84. Up until a month ago, my hair length was past my butt. I cut about 6 inches off, so now its just down to just above my butt. And man! Everyone seems to think I should cut my hair! Maybe I should put a poll on here and see what people think. Should I cut off all my hair? My mom wanted me to add the fact that I wear my hair in a bun everyday so that (and i'm quoting my mother) "don't get my hair caught in my crack" LOL
*Update: I added the poll to the upper right hand side of my page. Please vote!
85. I love peanut butter. I love any candy with peanut butter in it. Or even peanuts. I love peanuts! Or other nuts. Cashews, sunflower seeds, etc.
86. My favorite perfume is "white musk" at the Body Shop. I have the body wash, the lotion, the body powder, body glitter, and the perfume. I'm addicted to it!
87. I LOVE PIRATES!!! I love any movie or poster or anything to do with pirates. And I had this addiction even before the Pirates of the Carribean craze. Of course that enhanced it. I love Jack Sparrow!! <3
88. My favorite dish is the cajun chicken pasta at Chilis. Delish!
89. I'm really into dance/electronica/techno/house music right now.
90. I really wanna go see the movie Mamma Mia. Anyone wanna go?
91. I still haven't seen the Dark Knight!! Whats wrong with me?!! (Please dont answer that.)
92. I am wondering if people have really read this far and are still reading...
93. I'm now scrambling for anything I can think of to say about myself. Um..I like stupid jokes! Like... Why do gorillas have big nostrils? ....because they have big fingers! :)
94. I find goofy/crazy/awkward/weird/quirky/etc extremely sexy!!! Who wants to be romantic and suave? Not me!
95. Theres a huge part of me that doesnt think I'll ever get remarried again.
96. I was born about 2 months prematuraly. I was born at 3 lbs 11 oz.
97. I have nubbins instead of toes! I dont even have "knuckles" in my toes. :)
98. My mother and I have a theory that everything that goes wrong in this world, no matter what it is, is Phil's fault. I'm pretty sure it's fault that insurance rates are raising and he is the cause of the war in Iraq.
99. I read licence plates while driving to think of what medical abbreviations or insurance companies they stand for are. Such as NWA=North West Administrators or PCN=Primary care Network, or WTF...LOL
100. I'm pretty much the coolest person I know!! :) If you dont know me, I highly recommend you try.

TAG! Your it!!.....But only if you want to (and can) spare lots and lots of time!

Dark Hair! July 2008

2008-07-20T23:04:00.015-06:00

I FINALLY dyed my hair! This was long overdue.

Here's the step by step process!

BEFORE: Check out those brown roots with red tips. Oy, GROSS!

Here's Jen's before pic. She looks beautiful, but decided not to be blond anymore.

Waiting for the dye to set:

I think the fumes made me goofy! Oh wait, I'm always goofy!

Here's when I first rinsed the dye out...wow its dark!

Ta Da! The finished product!!

Its a dark redish brown, the darkest I've ever had:

A Look Back....

BEFORE:

AFTER: (YAY!)

New Camera

2008-06-29T15:06:00.002-06:00

I recently got a new camera (Thanks Jen!) I don't have a lot of opportunities to take photos, so here are pics of my pretty Princess! I LOVE my baby girl!! I really miss my other two babies, Chelsea Blue and Tinkerbell. :( But I'm glad I at least have my princess. Sooo adorable!!

Divorce, Dating and Moving On...

2008-06-26T23:07:00.000-06:00

Its been two months ...exactly 2 months ago today, since Phil left me. And it has been a CRAZY 2 months. It's kinda funny how life can change so dramatically just over night. So, in a previous blog I asked my friends and readers to give Phil the benefit of the doubt as far as whether or not he was sleeping with Jamie. Phil has now admitted to me face to face that he is sleeping with her. So everyone, no guessing, all facts. Feel free to judge him all you want now! Jamie is living in my apartment with him. Jamie is living there, with her 3 kids, and my two cats and all of my furniture. Its so hard. I'm actually doing really well though. When I first found out, I was really upset. I bawled like a friggin baby. But I really dont know which part I was bawling over. Its just so weird when you live your life a certain way and then all of a sudden everything is flipped upside down, ya know? I mean, I was happily married (or so I naively thought) and I knew that I'd always be with Phil. I knew and was content with the fact that he would be the only mad I'd ever love, ever sleep with, I'd bear his children, etc etc etc. I never even thought about what life would be like if I didnt have him. And here I'm faced with everything I "knew" being gone. And over the past 2 months I've had a LOT of time to look back and reflect and realize how much better off I am. When you're in love, you justify every little thing. But as I look back, I realize how wrong I was about everything. I realized just how often he lied to me. In fact, I'd be willing to bet he's the biggest liar I have ever met in my entire life. He lead me on and lied about so many different things, I could tell you stories that would make anyone cringe. And yet...I allowed it and forgave him time after time, because I loved him and I was supposed to forgive him. Not anymore. I'm done justifying and forgiving him. He is a liar, he's a cheater, and he's an asshole. He has treated me so badly over the last 2 months since the split that I really dont know who he is anymore. And I dont know why in the hell I was so blind.

Phil called me a few weeks ago to ask for money. He left me. He and his whore and his 3 kids live together, and he asked me for money. How retarded is that? You should have thought about this BEFORE you screwed an out of work mother of 3. Hello!!

And then theres my HSA (health savings account) funds. we were insured through MY health insurance at MY job and MY bosses contributed to my HSA. When he left me I decided to do some things for myself. I had a tooth break, so I got my tooth fixed. That was $600. And then I got a buttload of contacts, new glasses, and a pair of prescription sunglasses. I deserve them dammit! That was about $600 as well. So yup! There went our entire HSA savings account. So now, Phil has a dentist calling him for a past due bill, and phil called me screaming because I spent the HSA. He made me feel so guilty!!! I felt so bad and I was near tears over it. He was yelling at me that I should have split it 50/50. But then, as soon has he hangs up on me I sit back and think, why do I feel guilty??? That money was from MY bosses and came out of MY paychecks. Phil left ME, so why should I care? Grrr I hate that he has that effect on me. Its like as soon as I'm away from the situation I realize what I SHOULD have said. Why should I feel sorry for that lying cheating jackass? He doesnt deserve my sympathy. And ironically, I heard that he got laid off from his job. Serves him right. He was always late or calling in sick and he never worked while he was there. He was a slacker and was always talking. So now, he has no job, no money, lots of bills, 3 kids and a whore to take care of, and no Shelye to rescue him!! Karma is a bitch, aint it??? But the frustrating part is that he's telling everyone that my brother "pulled some strings" to get them to fire him. My brother does work there, but my brother didnt do anything!! It was phils own horrible work ethics that got him laid off. I wish he'd man up and own up to his mistakes rather than blaming everyone and everything else for his own dumb ass choices.

Anyways...Enough about him. I'm over him. Believe it or not! There are small parts of me that miss him. But mostly cuz I'm lonely. Its hard from going to sleeping next to someone everynight and then being alone. But its not out of love anymore. It was so hard for so long, but anger and hate is replacing depression and love. The more terrible shit he does to me, the more I do realize I am better off without him. I just wish he'd move his slow ass and finish the divorce paperwork.

So...being single SUCKS. I have only been "back in the game" for just over a month and I already hate it. Grrr. I have been asking several guys out and I keep getting rejected. And the depressing part is that 3 guys in particular used to show interest in me all the time. Even while I was married!! But now that I'm single and available, every single one of them has blown me off. I have asked them all out multiple times and I keep getting rejected. Ouch!! I guess its the thrill of the chase. They were interested when i was married and unavailable. But now that Im single again, they totally dont want me. Its pretty harsh. And it reminds me of the old days when all of my guy friends are always only interested in my gorgeous girlfriends. Sad huh? I guess my height and lack of maturity has something to do with it :)

On the bright side, I had a great time last night. Jo and I were at lagoon (we got season passes) and we ran into a few of my friends from the haunted house. So we hung out with them all night and went to dinner. that was a lot of fun. Lagoon is way more fun with males around than just the two of us. So that was good times.

I've also been getting out a lot more. I'm hardly ever online anymore. Sitting at home online is depressing, so I've been a whole lot more outgoing and social that I have been in years. And its just about killing me! I'm so tired from lack of sleep that I came right home from work today and fell asleep. I'm pooped! But I'm having a great time in the process.

On a side note regarding being single. I'm totally not looking for a relationship. I think some people assume that cuz I was married I want to rush right back into a relationship. Which is so NOT the case. I'm terrified of falling in love again, and more than that I'm skeptical that I'm even capable of falling in love with another man. I just wanna play and have fun and get to know people. So if anyone wants to go out, or has any gentlemen friends that would be intersested, hook me up! :) No strings attached. The last thing i need is more drama. Anyways...I'm blabbing so I'm gonna go. Peace!

Shelye's Kissing Booth!

2008-06-11T10:05:00.002-06:00

Lagoon

2008-06-10T22:31:00.002-06:00

I just got a season pass to Lagoon! If anyone ever wants to go, please call me! It costs $39.95 + tax which is pretty expensive. However, you can get tickets at Costco for like $33. Plus I'm pretty sure I have coupons if anyone is interested. Anyways, Lets go! Someone call me!!

Go to www.lagoonpark.com for more information.

Retro Junk!

2008-06-10T20:53:00.006-06:00

So a friend of mine introduced me to the awesomest, most bodacious website EVAR!! You can look up old tv shows, movies, commericals, etc from the 70's, 80's, and 90's! So freaking righteous!
Go to: http://www.retrojunk.com/ to take a gander!!

MORE....

I found one of my favorite movie's on here! Its a movie that no one has heard of. Everyone I've ever asked about thinks I'm crazy. It was such a scary movie back in the dizzay! Its called "Mr. Boogedy." I remember being terrified! The special effects were crazy bad, but it was amazing in those days!

Another classic favorite of mine was Pee-Wee's Playhouse, and the Pee-Wee Herman Movies. I know people deny liking it, but back in the day, Pee-Wee was the shiznit! I loved that show very much. Just hearing the theme song brought back so many memories. Click here to watch the intro: http://www.retrojunk.com/tv/videos/89-pee-wees-playhouse/87/#intro I bet there isn't a person out there who didn't watch this show! I loved the talking genie head thing in the box.

And man, the coolest game show ever! Where in the World is Carmen San Diego? They just don't make gold like that anymore!! That show had the coolest a capella group too. Good times!!

Click here to watch the video clips: http://www.retrojunk.com/tv/videos/735-where-in-the-world-is-carmen-sandiego/

Man! I can't get over the classics! They are shows I forgot even existed! VR Troopers, Alf, Wonder Years, Beetlejuice, Tailspin, Saved by the Bell, Popples, Wishbone, Magic School Bus, Eek the Cat (AWESOME!), Ghostwriter!! That was one of my all time favorites. Wow. Good times! I hope you all take a look at this site and take a walk down memory lane with me. :)

I miss my husband...but my aim is getting better!!

2008-06-01T20:13:00.006-06:00

Yeah...for some reason this made me feel tons better. I wish I could put Phil's picture on it, but alas, I cannot. I would love to find a cyber dart board and put "the other woman's" face on it. But this is fun! Give it a try! (Click the link below)

http://www.davidandgoliathtees.com/games/throwrocks.html

Obsessions...

2008-06-01T09:29:00.012-06:00

So as many of my faithful readers are aware, I have a disgusting obsession with Pirates.
I LOVE PIRATES!!!!

I believe I must have been a pirate in a past life or something. If it has anything to do with pirates, I'm all over that shiz! However...my pirate obsession has temporarily been replaced with:

VAMPIRES!

I know I'm only one of millions of people that are crazy about it, but I just have to confess, I freaking love Twilight!! I have read Twilight several times. And I'll probably re-read the other books in the series as well.

I'm so excited for the release of the 4th book, "Breaking Dawn" which comes out on August 2nd.

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And what I'm even MORE excited about is Twilight the Movie!! This will be coming out on Friday December 12, 2008. And I could not possibly be more excited!!!!

Twilight Movie Trailer:

SO EXCITED!!!!

New Phone!!

2008-05-26T18:36:00.003-06:00

I got a new phone! Its way cuter in person, but I love it so very much!!

2008--A year for Change

2008-05-26T17:52:00.009-06:00

Well, it has been over 9 months since I started this blog and I never even posted anything. That is going to change! 2008 has been a year of so many changes for me and so I'm turning over a new leaf. Phillip and I declared bankruptcy so now I am completely debt free. And now, Phillip is divorcing me. I have moved home with my parents and I've decided I need to make some changes in my life. I'm going to remain debt free, I'm going to finish my anatomy course and get my coding classes done, and get my coding licence! I'm also going to join a gym and try to make some changes in my life. I figured I'm done living my life to make Phil happy. Apparently that didn't work since he is no longer in love with me. I'm going to live for ME now. Its all about me!! (Yeah that sounds conceited, but if I dont take care of me, who will?) Along with these new changes, I'm going to try really hard to keep my blog up and running. I have several friends that are doing it and I love reading theirs to see whats going on in their lives, so I figure its a good way to keep a journal so to speak.

So...Update of 2008:

1. Bankruptcy. Sucks, but its good to be debt free. (The hardest part is knowing that I wouldnt have had to if it weren't for Phil, but I can't change that.)

2. I'm getting a divorce.

3. I'm living with my parents.

4. I don't get to keep my kitties :( But I finally convinced my dad to let me have Princess)

5. I have gained the world's absolute best friend!!!

Thanks to the power of the internet, my old friend Jen found me on Facebook. We were in drumline together back in high school. We weren't really close friends. I remember her being cool and all, but we never hung out outside of drumline. But now we hang out all the time, and she is the freaking shiznit! She's become my best friend, and a great shoulder to cry on during these really hard times (with the divorce and all.) I really don't know how I would have survived all the drama in my life right now without her!! And she's been helping me get off my lazy depressed butt and get out and enjoy life.

Here are a few pics of us being crazy and goofy and helping me get on with my life:

I love my Jen!! <3

Bad, Bad Blogger!

2008-03-30T15:23:00.001-06:00

So I get the bad blogger award! I haven't posted anything since I very first opened my account last summer. I have so much going on right now! We have the "Spring Scream" at the Haunted House and they've asked me to do ticketing for the Murder Mysteries. Ahh!! Too much to do! So hopefully I'll be up and posting soon!

Twins

2007-08-08T12:01:00.001-06:00

So I was playing on myspace (which I do quite often, sadly) and I was viewing my sister's photos. She had one called "me looking a lot like my sista" and I was like whoa! we totally do look a like! So I decided to take a picture of myself to compare them. Gotta love the results! (*Note she is 5 years older than me and has never looked like me until now).

Intro

2007-08-08T11:44:00.000-06:00

Ok Ok!! I admit it! Internet peer pressure got to me again! I have several friends that started posting internet "blogs" and now here I am finally joining in. First there was Hi5, then myspace, now this. What is this world coming to? But I suppose this is a good way for people to keep in touch and what not. So yeah...here I am. :-)